Hi there! Today I want to write about something that has been clouding my mind for a while now. I think it happens to everyone at some point in their lives and it’s something I’ve been going through for a while now lisinopril hctz. It’s something very personal, yet I feel the need to write it down and express the way I feel. More often than not, it really helps to clear the mind and start fresh. So here it goes!
You probably already read the title of this blog, so you kind of know what it’s about. For a while now I have this feeling that I’m stuck, specifically as a person. I think it’s important that as a person you always do your best to grow, to learn more new things and to expand your knowledge. Eventhough I think this is very important, I haven’t been doing this for a while now. In the beginning of 2014 I graduated and started looking for a job. It wasn’t easy and I got turned down a lot, if I got a response at all. Because you need money to pay the rent and everything else, I started working at a supermarket. At the end of 2014 I landed my first ever fulltime job and that is the place I’m still working at.
What I do? I am a Consultant Servicedesk, which basically is a fancy word for saying that if our customers have problems with our software, or questions about it, they can get in contact with me. It’s not a simple call center job because most of the time they don’t ask simple questions so we can’t use scripts or anything like that, but it’s not exactly what I had in mind when I graduated. This is my full time job, so I’m at the office 40 hours a week. Even though I learn something new every day, they are not the things that will land me another job, something different.
Ever since I started working full time, I started wondering if this was going to be it. I’m not learning new things in areas I’m interested in, nor do I feel like I have the energy to do so in my spare time. Spending so many hours at a job was completely new to me and this big change cost me a lot of energy. Most days I come home, we eat dinner, work out and get our lunch ready for the next day. Depending on the shift we work, sometimes we watch some tv show and then we go to bed.
To me it’s starting to feel like a drag. I feel like I am losing my sense of self, of who I am and what I like to do. Where I want to go with myself and what I want to accomplish. Before graduating I had all these ideas and ambitions of what I wanted to do and where I wanted my life to go. I need to get that back. I need to get out of this rut and find myself again. At this point in time, I’m not really sure how I will do that, but it does feel really nice just to get it out of my mind by writing it down.